I Love You, But – inspiration

The lyrics for “I Love You, But” are here.

This song is the latest in a string of songs that I wrote about one life experience – from “Disappointed” to “Impostor” to “Give Me a Reason“. I guess there are good things that come out of every hardship that you go through: you become stronger as a person, and you become very prolific at writing tragic songs. So basically there was a person in my life who I was super close to and really looked up to, and they did something that was really out of character and that really hurt and shocked me and many other people. I almost feel like these songs represent different stages of grief that I went through, because that’s what it was: I lost the person. They are still here, and they are still in my life, but something was broken and I’m not sure if it can ever go back to being the way it was before. In “Give Me a Reason” and this song, you might pick up that I’m at a stage where in my heart, I’ve forgiven this person, but I’m not convinced that I can ever trust them again. I think it’s possible to love someone with all your heart, but to really dislike a lot of things about their behaviour at the same time. In fact, part of my ongoing spiritual journey is learning how to love people who might do terrible things, because we are all human beings and have the potential for good within us, even if we our actions say otherwise. It’s something I’m still working on, and I think I’ll be working on it for the rest of my life.

I Love You, But – lyrics

We were much more than friends
A higher connection
You were my love, my trust, my blood

But then a shadow crept across your face
You chose the way that led to your disgrace

So tied up, don’t know what to do ‘cause I
I love you, but I really don’t like you
Said sorry, but you know it’s true that I
I love you, but I really don’t like you
I love you, but I really don’t like you
I love you, but I really don’t like you
I love you, but I really don’t like you
I love you, but I really don’t

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Time Does Not Reverse photoshoot

Photography by Mary Parker, makeup by Suzanah Soffian HMUA, hair by Candise at Shendals Signature Salon.

Work in progress: “Moderation”

A little sample of what we were working on in the studio last week… cutting up samples for the intro of a song.