So, in case you don’t know, I’m one of those people who’s always trying to think ahead. What will I be doing after I’ve finished doing what I’m doing right now? What will I be doing tomorrow? The day after? Next week? Next month? Next year? Where will I be? How will I get there? What if there’s something I can do right now which will make it better once I get there???!!
I need to constantly remind myself that there’s also here and now, and that if I don’t live in the here and now, then I’ll miss it and it will be gone forever!
When you’re a person with high aspirations/ ambitions, it’s also easy to constantly feel impatient, because you are not where you want to be yet. Sometimes I get myself down as I gaze at my TV screen and watch as scantily clad young female “singers” with voices so auto-tuned that they sound like hyper-emotional robots shake their rear ends in my face, thinking to myself, “WHY are THEY more successful than me?!”
And it’s moments like that that I have to do a double-take and take stock of what I’ve got and where I’ve been.
2011 has been a year of great personal tests for me. My mum who is chronically ill has been going through her second marriage break-up, and I’ve had to step up and take on a lot of new responsibilities as a result – to look after my mum, and also give emotional support to my younger siblings as much as I can. However, I count myself extremely lucky that I have my amazing husband Kia beside me the whole way – there is no way that I would have been able to do this without his support.
In terms of how my music has been going in the last twelve months, I also have a lot to be thankful for:
We’ve received two grants from the Department of Culture & Arts WA.
I did a songwriting collaboration with a Grammy-winning songwriter in the UK.
We’ve played everywhere from dingey pubs to VIP events to concert venues to large festival stages.
We’ve more than doubled our YouTube views, and greatly increased our online following.
We’ve grabbed the attention of local radio stations, all around Australia.
It’s been a lot of effort, and a lot of persistence, but at the end of the day I can safely say that I love my job; I’m proud of what I do and I’m making the music that I want to be making – music that (hopefully) uplifts and inspires others. How many scantily clad, hip-shaking auto-tune dependents can claim the same? 😉
Now, as we pass from one year to the next, I would like to give my thanks to those who enjoy, listen to, watch performances of, read about, tell others about, advocate, fundraise for or in any other way support our music!! There are too many of you to thank… there are those of you who turn up to almost every gig (you know who you are), those of you who bought multiple copies of the album so that we could afford to print it, those of you who are telling all your friends about our shows and sharing our weblinks around, and those of you who offer encouraging words from time to time… each and every one of you are part of this journey, and the music wouldn’t be the same without you.
Also, my humblest thanks to the musos in the band, who bring the music to life, and share the (literal) road with me, rocky and flood-stricken though it has been 😛 … they’re the engine that gets this train going!!
So here’s to 2012… I look forward to seeing what it will bring 🙂